ooh la la

probably that's the first word that popped in my head.
oops. i just sneezed. i didnt cover my freaking mouth.
everyone's beginning to worry about this A/H1N1. and so am I. it already hit Manila, man! some chinese student from La Salle tested positive to it. Their whole school's suspended for 10 days. I pray to God that it won't happen to us. I don't wanna end up cramming for make-up duties and classes.

Speaking of duties, in a couple of days from now, classes will begin again.
well, i've done a lot despite of only having 2 weeks of vacation. I had a blast with my cousin. Not to mention, the area there is rumored to have the life-threatening virus. (Alabang)
and yet, I survived. haha.
back to school...
I'm really not ready yet. probably because I'm not with my friends. actually, 4 of them are with me in the same section. but duh, the other section is much better. people there are from my 1st, 2nd and summer class section. if i were there, I would not be worrying about the upcoming semester. This will be our first exposure as student nurses. and I really wish that the people with me are those that I am already close with. I hope that my new classmates will be approachable. hahaha! hay.

adjustment. you cant really avoid that.
oh well, at least I still have friends in that section. I wish I could do well.
Just thinking about the schedules make me so nervous. I mean really, if I were with my old classmates, I wouldnt worry about anything. we've been through a lot. Damn it.

hmm. never mind. we'll do it right for the next semester. we'll get the sub numbers together. we'll enroll on the same dates. we'll be classmates again! we just have to!
because, rumor has it that the next semester sections will be block sections until our senior year. we're gonna get through this! HAHAHA!

good luck, TSINA people. :D

too in love to let it go.

and too sad to talk about it... :'(

pustiso

pagtanda ko, sana hindi malagas ipin ko. kasi ayoko magpustiso.
ano kaya feeling nun?
ayoko pa rin. kahit na sabihin mong hindi na sasakit ipin mo, ayaw ko pa rin.
mas gusto ko naman ngipin ko kahit hindi perfect. :P

wala lang. eto ang mga napagisip isip ko nung kinuha namin sa dentista yung pustiso ng Tita ko. hahaha. ang saya.

pagpalain sana ang mga ngipin natin.
bow. :D

sa eternal gardens

"PA. si eli, girlfriend ko. "
-patrick

actually, boyfriend pa yung sabi nya. HAHAHA!
and i'm not talking about his father. It's his lolo. and I'm not talking about his lolo na buhay.
it's his dead lolo. awww.

yeah. biglaan kaming pumuntang sementeryo. [Eternal Gardens]
wedding anniv kasi ng lolo at lola nya. eh his lola doesnt want to visit. kaya sya na lang daw. at sinama nya ko. :]
first time ko makapunta dun.
ayun. so peaceful. :]
we talked about a lot of things.
nagkwento sya ng mga pinaggagagawa nya dun nung bata pa siya. nakakatuwa. :]
i'm really flattered.
kahit na napakasimple lang nung nangyari para sa ibang tao.
aba, ipakilala ka naman ba sa patay na [parang sa A Very Special Love lang ah.]
oh diba. ayun. it was a PLEASURE. :]

I love him more,
enough of this corny-ness. hahaha!

7 na, ngpapagising na si mahal. :">

hearts <3

it's valentine's day. and in an hour, it'll be Mill's birthday.
anyway. ayun. actually, I can't think of anything to say.

my head's stuck to his stare.
our hands were locked the whole time.
he kissed me a dozen times more.
and three vehicles with the "wish-when-it-has-3-same-numbers" kind of plate number went a long way.

on the way to SM manila, we saw a 111 and 555 plate numbers and on the way back to blumentritt, we saw 333. Patrick figured out something. 1+5+3=9. I was like "oo nga noh!". It was so cute of him to notice that. :>
9 is the ultimate number. :P

back at home, my dad finally arrived. and awwe.. he kissed me and greeted me.
my mom to me was like, "di mo pa ko binabati ah" in her nagtatampo tone. so, that probably means were cool now. hayun.

in about 30 minutes, it's a happy happy birthday to Mill. :]

intramuros+starrr=LABnat [late post]

patrick: "oh ba't namumula mata mo?"
ako: [ngiti]
patrick: "umiyak ka noh?"
ako: [ngiti]
patrick: wag ka nga dyan umupo

parang abnormal lang ako. HAHAHA!

ako: alis nako ah.
patrick: pwede ba'ng wag ka na lang umalis? kung pwede lang naman.
ako: nag-promise ako kay Ikee eh.
patrick: dyan ka naman magaling eh.

and so I left. sakit ng ulo ko..
told Kapatid to meet me at 7-11.
called Ikee and asked for directions.
dahil half day lang kame at walang retdem skill sina kapatid, at dahil we miss Nikki and Ikee so much, we're going to Intramuros baby!
so, ayun, sumakay na kami ng jeep. sabi ko manong pakibaba po kami sa may post office ah. oo naman daw sabi ni manong. after some time, natanaw na namin yung Lyceum. but we insisted na bababa talaga kami sa post office na sinasabi ni Ikee. HAHA! at ayun. di pa rin namin nakita. we called Ikee, sabi namin nasa City Hall kami. ABA! malayo na daw yun! kaya bumaba na kami. at nilakad papuntang Lyceum! TAENA! nag-underpass kame, nangangapa. buti na lang, nakita namin si Mike! eh taga-Mapua sya, kaya nagpasama kame. an-tayataya diba! ayun. nagkita na kami nina Ikee. we thanked Mike.

ayan. Intramuros. within the walls talaga, kulong sila eh oh. hahaha. kaso parang ang chorva ng mga tao dun. hahaha. kami lang talaga naiiba eh oh! :]] hayun. nagsinungaling kami sa guard. sbi namin mag-iinquire kami sa loob. nag-iwan ng I.D. kumain sa kanilang canteen.
pero Lyceum was smaller than what I expected. hehe. pero grabe, ang gaganda talaga ng uniform nila except the one with the gray pants and the Nursing uniform. ayun. around 230, umalis na din kame. di kame ma-hatid nina nikki at ikee dahil may exam sila. gumawa si Ikee ng napakawalang kwentang sketch kasi grabe, naintindihan namin yun. HAHA!
nangapa na naman kame. nakakita ng jeep papuntang Blumentritt! sumakay kami. maya-maya, umulan na. hala. wala kong payong. damn it.

a couple of jeepney smokes later, blumentritt na! home sweet home. hahaha! dinaanan ko muna si mahal. kumakain sila ng secret lover nyang si Jeff. HAHAHA! kidding...
umalis ako ng walang paalam kasi wala lang. nabadtrip lang ako kay jeff. haha! sakit din ng ulo ko eh. pagdating sa bahay, bagsak agad ako.wala kong nadatnang tao.

fast forward to 9:30PM. mama woke me up. nagising ako. at tinatamad bumangon. ramdam ko na talagang may lagnat ako. ngayon na lang ulit ako nagka-lagnat.
so, i texted patrick. napagalitan pa ko. at may mga napag-usapan kaming too personal to reveal. hmm. gaya nga ng sinabi ko kay Mill, we're on the verge of breaking up. taena. kung kelan may lagnat ako oh. HAHA! hayun. naging labnat. :]]
PERO.
wala din. naging okay na din ang lahat in just 30minutes lang ata. HAHA!


LOVE; such a funny thing. HAHAHA!

hell: think about it

question: Would you rather live in hell or die in hell?

Hell is the scariest place you could ever imagine. It's the last place a person could ever want to go to or be in. Your nightmares come alive and unimaginable things happen. It would be such a pity to anyone who would even be close to hell.

Come to think of it, I would'nt want my life to end drastically. I would'nt want my last memory of living to be a nightmare that would haunt me forever. But that does not mean that I would like to live in hell. Hell no! Of course, I don't want to prolong my cavalry. I prefer to just die in hell and come out as a victim than to live in it with the others who sold their souls and be one of them. If I choose to live in hell, sure I could get used to everything. But I would'nt want it that way. I would rather die in hell.

So why should I force myself into something I know that is really out of my system? I would never change my mind about not living in hell. It would be such a shame. I would rather end everything right then and there than cope with everything that is evil.

shining star

mga ilang araw na ding kaming nag-aaway. hahaha.
sa pare-parehong bagay. ganun at ganun pa rin. pero hindi nakakasawa. HAHAHA!
Away konti tas okay na ulit. odiba. bongga. :]]

ayun. dahil sa away na yun. kahit papano, mas nagiging okay na.

at aalis kami sa 14.
first up. St. Joseph College fair. kasama namin ang barkada ko: pinkx
tapos, direcho sa kanila. kasama ang barkada nya, ang disco TL.
it's actually flattering na gustung-gusto nila ko makilala. nakausap ko sila. and nakaka-aliw sila kausap. at nangawit panga ko sa kakatawa.

BASTA.
nakakatuwa naman. at iniinsist pa ni Pat na ihahatid nya daw ako hanggang dito samin. HALA! nako nako. di ko pa carry. kausapin ko na lang sya tungkol dun. syempre, ayokong ang impression na tumatak kay na mama sa kanya ay masama. diba diba. kasi ihahatid nya ko gabi. sanihin na nating may positive side yun. pero kahit na. gabi na eh. diba? HAHAHA. Next time na lang. oooh weeeee.

napakawalang kwenta na naman ng nasulat ko. nakakatamad kasi eh. HAHA!

sana maging masaya ang Valentine's day ng lahat. :]

advance happy beerday kay Mill. :]]

???

bakit pag naka-draft yung blog mo sa papel, tas itatransfer mo na sa blogger, nakakatamad nang gawin?
bakyetttt?[mill] HAHAHA. is it me or is it just me?
eh? ano daw?

pero di nga. ganun din ba kayo?
HAHA. di bale. sarap naman mag-type eh. I mean, ang sarap lang pakinggan nung tunog ng keyboard pag iniistrike mo sya. weird. lumalagitik? HAHA.

tanning star

Patrick Star or Patrick Tan?

you know that show Spongebob Squarepants?
it's everybody's favorite. my favorite. But I've never really loved Patrick Star. He is funny I should say. Nickelodeon quotes him as the Pink Menace.

patrick tan. He is kind of a menace to me too at some times. ahahaha. In a sadomasochist kind of way. kidding. basta yun.

Tan is sweet but not expressive in public.
Star is sweet in an innocent kind of way. Remember how he and Spongebob would always annoy Squidward? But Squidward's too grouchy to even appreciate them

just like Star, I wish Tan would also strive to be better.
remember how Star wanted to be like Spongebob because he adored him for having lots of trophies and awards. He literally mimic Spongebob. It was kind of stupid, don't you think? But at least he tried.

I wish Tan would be dumb. as dumb as Star that everything I say, he believes. everything I want him to do, he would do it. But Tan's too tough. If Tan was as dumb as Star, I would never do him wrong. I would never tell him stupid, unreasonable, unbelievable and wrong things or let him do stupidity. I would guide him. He'd be smarter because I'm the one he's with. He would stay pink. But he would still be funny to Spongebob's viewers. see? funny and smart. haha. And he'd still be pink. Just the way I like it. :]

ang init na

Retdem skill: Bedmaking
C.I: sir santos

people know him as this super funny guy; when-you're-with-him-nothing-could-go-wrong type of guy.

it's true. pero totoo palang pag mabait, masama magalit. Ayun. Yung classmate ko kasi, sya yung naunang mag-perform. Eh puro daw palpak. GRABE. Galit na galit si sir. AS IN. Eh putcha. Ako yung next eh. So yung tira-tirang galit nya, pwedeng mabaling sakin. Nakaka-pressure! dami ko tuloy mali. Tas may mali pa kong tupi. Tas nag-exceed pa ko ng 2 minutes. Siguro pag di galit yun, okay pa sana.HAHA. So I was worrying sa magiging result. WHEW! naka-92 pa ko. not bad. akala ko mga 70 something na lang eh. bwahaha!

Uwian na! 10:30 pa lang ata. aba. birthday ni Marc. Nakisali lang kami. sabi ni Jhara, napadaan nga lang daw kami. We ate at Timesquare [where it all happens -MILL]. akalain mo yun. tapos nag-joke na naman si jara, ambag daw tas bilhan si Marc ng cake. etong si Jocjoc, naglabas ng pera, tas sunud-sunod na sila. HAHA. ayun. we bought 4 little cakes , ice cream and 1 toblerone. may sobra pa sa pera eh. i hope we made Marc's birthday 4 cakes happier. HAHAHA. ingay nga namin sa timesquare eh, parang mga lasing na nagkakantahan ng Happy Birthday. hay. gaya ng sabi ni Mill, "what would they do without us" yabangzzz. HAHAHA.

12 noon. umuwi na kami ni mill.
1PM. bayan. I was too bored to go home. at napunta tuloy ako kay na M ng wala sa oras. haha! sa wakas, nakapunta na din ako sa kanila.kumain na naman kami. at, sya lang yung taong kilala ko na tinatanggal yung laman ng Toron at tinitira yung balat. :]] Ang fun! nagsawa kami mag-net. around 4:30, umuwi nako. at habang naglalakad ako sa streets ng Bayan, aba'y naabutan ko sina Loura, JP at Paulyn. ayun, sumabay nako sa kanila. saayaaaa! na-miss ko sila kahit nung Tuesday lang kami huling nagkita. hahaha.

5pm. casimiro na ME! aba. nakita ko pa kapatid ni ex. tinawag ko sya. close kami eh oh. hahaha.

andaming nangyari. pagod nako. WOOO. init na.

a letter for him

HAAANU BA.
hindi tayo nagkikita kahit nasa iisang bulding lang tayo.ang loser ah. kung lilipat ka na talaga, dapat lubusin na natin yung time natin together. If schedules are hindrances, there will always be another way.

friends; wag mong i-reason na "kasama mo naman sila eh" blah blah... mas kasama ko sila gng matagal kaya dapat lang na ikaw naman kasama ko.Lagi ka nga nila hinahanap sakin eh. "oh asan na si star?" "ba't di mo kasama si star?". sa totoo lang, I'm jealous with the other couples na nakikita kong magkasama. :|

di ka na masyadong nagtetext tulad ng dati. nagtatampo ka kasi di ko nasasabi sayo lahat ng pinupuntahan ko. oh ngayon, sinasabi ko na lahat pero deadma ka naman eh. ano kaya yun. dati kapag wala ka na masyadong masabi sa text, magsasabi ka na lang ng mwuah i miss you i love you. odiba.
sweet nothings. eh ngayon, kung wala, wala talaga.

dati hinihintay mo pa ko. lagi mo pa ko hinahanap. big deal talaga sakin yan. kasi parang ayaw mo talaga eh. Am I not worth the wait?

nagsosorry ka nga pero parang hanggang dun lang. parang nung Sunday, tinanong mo kung okay na tayo. sabi ko okay na.tapos iniinsist ko kung bakit di mo ko mahintay. after that "sorry", I was expecting na "sige next time sabay na tayo". pero hindi eh.

Tapos yung sinabi mo nung Sunday, tinanong mo kung galit ako.sabi ko badtrip lang. lagi mo na lang ako binabadtrip. sabi mo, "yaan mo, onting panahon na lang.". So, ano pinapalabas mo dun, pag umalis ka na ng Tsina, it's over na. GAAAAHHDDDD!

nasaktan talaga ko kahapon. kasi ba't ganun, ba't mo ko kakalimutan? bakit mo kakalimutang may naghihintay sayo? ibig ba sabihin, hindi mo siniseryoso mga sinasabi ko kaya hindi tumatatak sa isip mo? naiiyak na talaga ko kanina. alam mo yun, di ko alam kung nananadya ka ba or what. kasi di ka rin nagtetext. nagtext ka nung nasa jeep ka na. oh anu yun, joke?! diba sinabi ko sayo, sensitive talaga ko.nakakadisappoint talaga. "Kung gusto, may paraan. Kung ayaw, may dahilan. "

sabi mo be open. i'm being open na but I don't know if tinatanggap mo ba or inaabsorb mo ba yung mga pinagsasasabi ko...

hindi ako nang-aaway, nagsasabi lang.di ako galit [hmmmm], disappointed lang, malungkot lang. sobra. pero di naman ako sumusuko agad.
i love you, you love me. Kaya I wanna make it work & I hope you do too.

[not actually a letter-letter for him.just things that I want to, need to and going to say...]

sleepy. tired. wish you'd call right now.

sawsaw the pan de sal here

wala lang. kala mo kung ano noh. it's just some "mug" title from Team Manila.
it's the last one i've read eh. na-stuck up sa utak ko kaya ginawa kong title. HAHA.

ANYWAY.
what have i been eating these past few days?
i feel constipated eh. HAHAHA. joke. exagg lang. di naman. ayus naman ang peristalsis ko. i think. hahaha.

de. sa totoo lang. wala talaga kong magawa. inaantok na nga ko eh. but i'm still waiting for someone's text. Taena, natulog na naman yun. tas gigising ng alas dos. tas tatawag sa cellphone. eh malamang tulog na ko nun. jusko.

ang nonsense naman ng blog kong to.
next time i'll try to write a more meaningful one. naks! HAHA.

day off

first time na walang pasok.

i did nothing.
i woke up at around 11:30.
checked text messages.
got up.
ate lunch.
opened the computer and got stuck. :]]

i'm supposed to study Biochemistry [kasumpa-sumpa], but then again, tinamad ako.
i texted my friend. at sabi nya, tawag daw ako sa kanila pag-uwi nya, bigyan nya ko ng ever-forbidden leakage. HAHAHA.
and so, i did. i shared it with Mill, who also shared stuff with me on the phone [Bride Wars, Blogspot].

so, speaking of Blogspot, naimpluwensyahan na naman ako ni Mill. hahaha. and here's my first post. hmmm. sana gumana yung pinost kong layout or whatever you call it here. hahaha!

CIAO! :]]