You got me.

even though you don't text me the moment you wake up, and still wait until the you arrive at your destination before you do. even though you pretty much don't have anything to say but "Haha. Okay :))", and I carry the conversation most of the time. even though you don't greet me good night and always fall asleep when we text at wee hours. even though I feel like you don't care anymore. even though I still don't know what you feel about me, about US. even though you don't like going to far places. even though you don't like phone calls even though you always worry about what we can do while waiting for the movies, like it is such a hard time being with me. even though you're always the one who lets go when we hold hands even though we don't hold hands under the table in front of friends anymore even though i think you were sweeter before even though I think you have changed even though you never send me ">:)" texts anymore even though you never say I miss you anymore even though you're always moody and i think that I'm always the one to blame. even though I find myself crying every night because of you. and tonight was the nth time. even though I really miss you EVERYDAY but i can't do anything about it. even though you won't tell me anything even though you hate my dog and pretty much everything i like even though I think you wouldn't appreciate my "future gifts" to you. That's right, I've been thinking about what to give you this Christmas. and for your birthday. Actually, I have thought of what to give you already. even though I think we're eventually falling apart. even though I think this is coming to an end even though I didn't know why I even made this list even though I don't think that you could ever love me someday even though you didn't even introduce me to your mom. Fine, maybe because I was wearing that short dress. even though we don't take pictures together (when we go out) even though your fb profile picture is a picture of you and another girl. But just a few minutes ago, you changed it already. That's good. even though you forget almost everything that I tell you even though I can't even say that i'm jealous, and sad, and hurt without you changing your mood about it, even though i feel like i'm the one who catches you all the time and you never bother to do the same. even though I should be studying right now and yet I'm still thinking of you. I think of you from the moment I wake up to the moment I close my eyes to sleep. I guess that's why i've been experiencing insomnia episodes lately. even though my eyes look like shit after hours of crying over you, and sometimes, for no reason. And you don't even know that I cry because of you. You think that I'm brave enough to handle all of these. But right now, I could really need a hug from you. Lol what the fuck. A hug. even though i wanna sing to you Adele's "I can't make You Love Me". Cuts through the bones, man! even though you don't think I'm beautiful and you even compared me to your crush, Toni Gonzaga. Oh God, i almost cried at that moment. You were holding my hand and you tell me that i have no asset?! what the fuck dude. i know you were kidding. (actually i dont really know) But, it hurts. Like whuuuuuuut even though you always say "bahala na" every time i invite you to something. I really want you to come. SO BAD. even though my mom really likes you and she has no idea that I am mourning over my feelings for you! Even though these ideas are not "mgkakatugma" even though i have been hurting all this time... ...I LOVE YOU