sorry naman

you see, this guy likes me. but i dont like him back because i like someone else. and that someone else does not know that i actually like him. i dont wanna tell him... alam nyo kasi, ako ung tipong sobrang babaw. ako ung tipong, when a friend tells a sweet story of something that her boyfriend did to her or for her, prmise, mas kikiligin pako sa kaibigan ko. HAHA. MABABAW LANG TALAGA KO. un na ngam si boy #1 bought me flowers without me knowing it. and the worst part pa nun, dinala nya sa bahay around 10PM habang ako ay nasa night shift duty ko. Takte. HAHA. SPELL E F F O R T! Grabe lang eh. Hinarap nya yung kuya ko, tsaka si papa! oh ehm!! :)) Kaso ito lang e, bakit di ako msyadong kinilig? alam mo yun, knowing my self, dpat naiyak na ko nun eh? HAHA. Kaso hindi. Pero i really appreciated it and I dont know how i could repay it. BUT, HNDI KO TALAGA SYA GUSTO KAHIT ANONG PILIT KO. SORRY NA. alam mo yun, andami ko na ngang pinag-aaralan, pati mahalin sya pag-aaralan ko pa? and besides, may gusto daw kasi akong iba kaya ganun ako skanya. Bakit mas gusto ko pa ata dun sa choice na mas mhihirapan ako. HAHA! Pero in fairness, kahit wala ko feelings kay boy number 1, nahirapan pa din ako sa sitwasyon na pinaparanas nya sakin. HAHA! Ang bitch ko nga daw eh. Pero come to think of it, mas bitch ako kung patatagalin ko pa yung panliligaw nya at ittake advantage ko lang sya diba. so i actually decided to end it na. give it proper closure and all that. Kaso nkaramdam ata ang gago. Inunahan ako. Sabi ko lang naman na may sasabihin ako, WALA NAMAN AKONG IBANG GINAGAWA, buglang ganun. Hahahahaha! Ang funny lang, akala nya magiging affected ako? Lol. Sya pa nagcancel ng lakad namin ah? KFINE! IDFC!:)) Pero youre prolly thinking na if i dont fuucking care, then why am i blogging about him? Wala lang. I just realized na, kahit anong EFFORT pa ng lalaki. Kahit ano pang sabihin nya (kahit ung mga tipo ng salita na pinapangarap mong masabi sayo). Kahit ano pang gawin nya at iparamdam nya, kahit gaano ka pa kababaw, kung di mo lang din sya gusto at wala kang plano gustuhin, WALA KA TALAGANG MARARAMDAMAN. Gaya nga ng sinabi ng friend ko, you dont tell someone na there are a lot of fishes in the sea o kaya, andami pang lalaki dyan. Kasi may iisa lang talaga para sayo. I know that what ive decided is final. alam ko ang nararamdaman ko. alam ko ang ayaw ko at gusto ko. At desidido na kong di kami magiging more than friends. E muka nga ding bitter na sya sakin ngayon? :)) Sorry na kasi. Wala naman akong kasalanan ah.

just friends

Hello, tell me you know, yeah, you've figured me out Something gave it away And it would be such a beautiful moment to see the look on your face To know that I know that you know now And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking You know nothing 'Cause you and I, why we go carrying on for hours on end We get along much better than you and your boyfriend (girlfriend sana lol) Well, all I really want to do is love you A kind much closer than friends use But I still can't say it after all we've been through And all I really want from you is to feel me As the feeling inside keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me Well, how long can I go on like this, wishing to kiss you Before I rightly explode And this double life I lead isn't healthy for me, in fact it makes me nervous If I get caught I could be risking it all Well, baby there's a lot that I miss in case I'm wrong If I should be so bold, I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again And all I really want from you is to feel me It's a feeling inside that keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me It might kill me