Sabi ko wag kang iiyak eh. sabi ko pigilan mo. pero bigla na lang tumulo eh noh? di dapat ganito kabilis yun eh. di dapat mapunta sa ganito. Leche haha!
Do I still want to be the other girl? Naaawa na ko sa sarili ko. But I don't want to ruin their fairy tale.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Martinis and third parties
My past relationship ended because of a third party. Third, fourth, fifth and maybe even a sixth party. Haha!
I kinda miss having a boyfriend though. One you could flirt with, and at the same time, Love with all that you are. But I always end up the one being only flirted with. And not loved. Desired but not owned. I feel like a mistress here you know? Does it feel so good because it's wrong? Or it's wrong that's why it feels good? I hope he realize which side he really wants. I'm not being serious or anything. I don't know the girl. It's just that I feel bad for her. Because I've been there. And yet I'm doing this now. I know what it feels like being cheated on. and yet I'm helping a boy cheat on the love of his life, with me.
It bothers me sometimes. Aren't they happy with where they are at? Isn't he satisfied with her? Is she losing her touch? Or is it just me? Is it because I'm his first love? Eto naman si ako, gora lang. Am I being the bitch here? OMG, I forgot. Yes, I'm the bitch here. I can't help it.
To the girl, sorry if I'm starting to ruin your togetherness. It's not really my fault that your guy keeps on sticking onto me. Okay, well, part of it is because of me. I apologize for that.
To the guy. Hey there. :) Nakakaaning na noh? Haha
I don't know if you'll for me. Again. Or if I'll fall for you. I just hope that when that happens, you'll know what to do. You know you can't undo things. You know it's impossible not to hurt anyone. But don't mind me, I'm just playing in.
For now :) I hope that as early as now, you'd be able to reflect on what you can and will do. We're big now. From me being your muse, and you being my escort, we have come a long way now. And it's all right to end it. Because I know about her.:)
I'll understand. I promise I will. You have no idea. :)
I kinda miss having a boyfriend though. One you could flirt with, and at the same time, Love with all that you are. But I always end up the one being only flirted with. And not loved. Desired but not owned. I feel like a mistress here you know? Does it feel so good because it's wrong? Or it's wrong that's why it feels good? I hope he realize which side he really wants. I'm not being serious or anything. I don't know the girl. It's just that I feel bad for her. Because I've been there. And yet I'm doing this now. I know what it feels like being cheated on. and yet I'm helping a boy cheat on the love of his life, with me.
It bothers me sometimes. Aren't they happy with where they are at? Isn't he satisfied with her? Is she losing her touch? Or is it just me? Is it because I'm his first love? Eto naman si ako, gora lang. Am I being the bitch here? OMG, I forgot. Yes, I'm the bitch here. I can't help it.
To the girl, sorry if I'm starting to ruin your togetherness. It's not really my fault that your guy keeps on sticking onto me. Okay, well, part of it is because of me. I apologize for that.
To the guy. Hey there. :) Nakakaaning na noh? Haha
I don't know if you'll for me. Again. Or if I'll fall for you. I just hope that when that happens, you'll know what to do. You know you can't undo things. You know it's impossible not to hurt anyone. But don't mind me, I'm just playing in.
For now :) I hope that as early as now, you'd be able to reflect on what you can and will do. We're big now. From me being your muse, and you being my escort, we have come a long way now. And it's all right to end it. Because I know about her.:)
I'll understand. I promise I will. You have no idea. :)
Friday, October 15, 2010
in-loved
Yes, you thought that he felt the same too. That both of you are gonna be forever and always, and all that. Well, some things change. Forgive life for that. Try not to go back to those memories that make you go weak. Those sweet sundays are now nothing but boring. Listening to that song all over again eh? His face pops every time you think about things; just about any thing. Feeling his hands still holding yours. Thinking about what he would say if this or that would happen. Undone plans. Broken promises. Words you didn't say. Stop it. Slap yourself. Let it go. Seriously. Even though you think that NOTHING can ever compare to him. You could be wrong, you know? Move forward and hope for the best. The very best. Sweet Sundays.
They say if it doesn't kill you, it'll make you stronger. It didn't kill you right? Then it means, you are stronger now.
They say if it doesn't kill you, it'll make you stronger. It didn't kill you right? Then it means, you are stronger now.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Ano?
Bakit yung mga "blog-material" thoughts ko, lumalabas lang pag bago ako matulog. O kaya pag hndi ako nagbblog. Nakakainis. Hahahaha!
Tapos minsan gusto ko mag-blog, minsan Hindi kasi tinatamad ako. Pero gusto ko naman talaga. Lol ang gulo ko diba. HAHA! Matutulog na nga ko.
Namiss ko lang siguro may ka-holding hands while walking. Wala lang. Yan napagtanto ko kanina eh.
Tapos minsan gusto ko mag-blog, minsan Hindi kasi tinatamad ako. Pero gusto ko naman talaga. Lol ang gulo ko diba. HAHA! Matutulog na nga ko.
Namiss ko lang siguro may ka-holding hands while walking. Wala lang. Yan napagtanto ko kanina eh.
Dance to Inspire :)
Watched STREET DANCE in 3D today. Sponsor of Mill Cruz. Hhahaha!
First time ko. Mas Bongga yung expectationjs ko, pero okay naman. Namangha pa din naman ako. :)) Ang ganda ng film. I wish I was THAT good! Nakaka-inspire tuloy sumayaw pa :)
Tapos, nakita pala ko ng mga kamag-anak ko dun!
Mga pamangkin ko! Eh kakarating lang nila from the States. Parang last night lang, ka-chat ko pa sila. Tapoos, out of the blue, magkikita kami sa MOA?! Hahaha!
Ang sayaaaaaa!
Tapos bago ako umuwi, me and my Ante met at SM fairview. Nagpalibre lang ako ng Starbucks. Yum yung Cinammon Roll! and of course yung Java chip! :)
Tapos sabi ko mag-aaral ako. Kaso ang hirap mag-aral. Dapat nga, I should have started now. Kaso may Tumblr, Facebook, Lookbook, at blogger kasi e. AYNAKO. :))))
First time ko. Mas Bongga yung expectationjs ko, pero okay naman. Namangha pa din naman ako. :)) Ang ganda ng film. I wish I was THAT good! Nakaka-inspire tuloy sumayaw pa :)
Tapos, nakita pala ko ng mga kamag-anak ko dun!
Mga pamangkin ko! Eh kakarating lang nila from the States. Parang last night lang, ka-chat ko pa sila. Tapoos, out of the blue, magkikita kami sa MOA?! Hahaha!
Ang sayaaaaaa!
Tapos bago ako umuwi, me and my Ante met at SM fairview. Nagpalibre lang ako ng Starbucks. Yum yung Cinammon Roll! and of course yung Java chip! :)
Tapos sabi ko mag-aaral ako. Kaso ang hirap mag-aral. Dapat nga, I should have started now. Kaso may Tumblr, Facebook, Lookbook, at blogger kasi e. AYNAKO. :))))
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Java Chip
just got home from the mall.
I think I have found the perfect concealer. I think. I hope.
So I was getting in to EVERY cosmetic shop at SM Fairview. I got into the department store. I shifted from one cosmetic stop to the other. Then one saleslady (VMV Hypoallergenics) asked me if I'd let her make me up, cover me up, you know, do my make-up. And so I let her. I asked for the price of the thing she was putting on my face. A whapping 1,500 php man! But she did great. It concealed marks and everything. But for me it was too "makapal". Well, I guess that is what my face needs. lol! And so, I bought it. I asked money from my brother. What a brat. HAHA! And I bought a toner (with Clindamycin and Benzoic acid and that some other thing. ) too. I hope it would fucking work. Sabi ko pa nga, ipapa-bless ko pa yun bukas sa Manaoag. Magsisimba kasi kami dun tomorrow :))) Ayun, the money was, again, from my brother. He's so nice hahaha. I helped him bought new shirts anyway. I told him I'd treat him with a frap. :D But he insisted.
I tried a new flavor at Starbucks. I just feel like tasting a new one. That vanilla caramel frap. But I didnt like it. I should have sticked with my Java Chip baby :(
I think I have found the perfect concealer. I think. I hope.
So I was getting in to EVERY cosmetic shop at SM Fairview. I got into the department store. I shifted from one cosmetic stop to the other. Then one saleslady (VMV Hypoallergenics) asked me if I'd let her make me up, cover me up, you know, do my make-up. And so I let her. I asked for the price of the thing she was putting on my face. A whapping 1,500 php man! But she did great. It concealed marks and everything. But for me it was too "makapal". Well, I guess that is what my face needs. lol! And so, I bought it. I asked money from my brother. What a brat. HAHA! And I bought a toner (with Clindamycin and Benzoic acid and that some other thing. ) too. I hope it would fucking work. Sabi ko pa nga, ipapa-bless ko pa yun bukas sa Manaoag. Magsisimba kasi kami dun tomorrow :))) Ayun, the money was, again, from my brother. He's so nice hahaha. I helped him bought new shirts anyway. I told him I'd treat him with a frap. :D But he insisted.
I tried a new flavor at Starbucks. I just feel like tasting a new one. That vanilla caramel frap. But I didnt like it. I should have sticked with my Java Chip baby :(
Friday, July 2, 2010
heartbreaking
“See that girl? Yeah, she’s the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up til’ midnight just to talk to you. She’s the one whose heart flutters when she gets a call or text from you, the one who says Good morning every time she gets the opportunity, and the one who prays she’ll get a chance to say Goodnight. Boy, she’s the one who fought for you, the one that missed you and loved you. But by the time you realise that she’s the girl you want, she’ll already be with the guy who figured it out.”
heartbreaking
“See that girl? Yeah, she’s the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up til’ midnight just to talk to you. She’s the one whose heart flutters when she gets a call or text from you, the one who says Good morning every time she gets the opportunity, and the one who prays she’ll get a chance to say Goodnight. Boy, she’s the one who fought for you, the one that missed you and loved you. But by the time you realise that she’s the girl you want, she’ll already be with the guy who figured it out.”
3rd of July
July 3 of 2010 is the day!
...to find the perfect concealer. BWAHAHA!
My fucking pimples are killing me, man! Believe it or not, Cetaphil won't even work.
Kulang na lang ipatapyas ko na buong balat ko tas get it grafted with a new set of skin. Putangna talaga. Hahahaha!
Any suggestions for THE PERFECT CONCEALER? :))
...to find the perfect concealer. BWAHAHA!
My fucking pimples are killing me, man! Believe it or not, Cetaphil won't even work.
Kulang na lang ipatapyas ko na buong balat ko tas get it grafted with a new set of skin. Putangna talaga. Hahahaha!
Any suggestions for THE PERFECT CONCEALER? :))
Before I eat...
my Tumblr is for pictures.
my Blogger is for texts. HAHAHA
I was just reading my posts last year. And since everything already happened; I'd like to prove my worries wrong, my conclusions to be reconcluded again, my wishes to be revised, my grammar to be better. Hahaha.
This past school year has been a blast. I laughed. Cried. Thought. Lived in a boarding house. Got drunk almost every other night. Started to smoke. Experimented. Loved. Hurt. Loved again. Hurt again. Cried some more. Listened. Moved on. Smiled. and Lived...
The new school year has been going on for a month now. So far, so good. I hope I get to keep it up, and even get better. You know, with everything. I have come a pretty long way now (or short), and I hope I get to remember everything I learned and tried to learned. I guess something like that.
So, blogger, I hope that this year will be more than a blast. I will laugh and cry and love and hurt and live some more. Who won't anyway. But I know I'll have fun along the way. I know I'll find out more with these things. Things that will forever change me.
So, bullshits, I welcome you all. :))
Bring it on. But please, go easy on me, alright? ;)
my Blogger is for texts. HAHAHA
I was just reading my posts last year. And since everything already happened; I'd like to prove my worries wrong, my conclusions to be reconcluded again, my wishes to be revised, my grammar to be better. Hahaha.
This past school year has been a blast. I laughed. Cried. Thought. Lived in a boarding house. Got drunk almost every other night. Started to smoke. Experimented. Loved. Hurt. Loved again. Hurt again. Cried some more. Listened. Moved on. Smiled. and Lived...
The new school year has been going on for a month now. So far, so good. I hope I get to keep it up, and even get better. You know, with everything. I have come a pretty long way now (or short), and I hope I get to remember everything I learned and tried to learned. I guess something like that.
So, blogger, I hope that this year will be more than a blast. I will laugh and cry and love and hurt and live some more. Who won't anyway. But I know I'll have fun along the way. I know I'll find out more with these things. Things that will forever change me.
So, bullshits, I welcome you all. :))
Bring it on. But please, go easy on me, alright? ;)
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Lez go Party!
Partying makes me feel happy to know that I am single.
But how long will I feel this way? lol
ang drama. Lagi kasi akong talo. Napapaisip na lang tuloy ako, may matino pa bang love story para sakin? I'M starting to lose faith in love tuloy. Ako ba ito? HAHA!
I used to be that girl who'd always rely on love and trust on its magical influences.
Guess that's what heartaches make of you. Well, I wouldnt regret everything. I learned. A lot.
But I guess the whole situation makes me want to "lie low" for a while. I don't know if I'd take it seriously when that next time comes. But I can't help it. I don't know how to play with people's feelings. I'm too nice. Is that the reason why Love seems to love to mess with me?
Part of me still wants to believe. I really do, someday. And when that day comes, I hope that the next guy would make me believe. Again. like I used to.
But how long will I feel this way? lol
ang drama. Lagi kasi akong talo. Napapaisip na lang tuloy ako, may matino pa bang love story para sakin? I'M starting to lose faith in love tuloy. Ako ba ito? HAHA!
I used to be that girl who'd always rely on love and trust on its magical influences.
Guess that's what heartaches make of you. Well, I wouldnt regret everything. I learned. A lot.
But I guess the whole situation makes me want to "lie low" for a while. I don't know if I'd take it seriously when that next time comes. But I can't help it. I don't know how to play with people's feelings. I'm too nice. Is that the reason why Love seems to love to mess with me?
Part of me still wants to believe. I really do, someday. And when that day comes, I hope that the next guy would make me believe. Again. like I used to.
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